The reason anxiety can get to you
A few days ago my stomach knotted up. It stayed that way for a while and then even started to hurt. I couldn't focus so well. I remembered Gary Zukav's point about living consciously and with awareness.I realized that I should focus on this pain, feel it clearly, and allow myself to acknowledge that something was wrong. I could have taken some sugar and gotten temporary relief. But I was in no mood to escape. I had to confront this. True, I hid behind the sounds of music to relieve my constant fear of loneliness, but I tried to make sure I was honest about it all. Living consciously means to not blame others for how you feel. I realized that this was a wonderful opportunity for growth. I quickly searched for "knotted stomach." Came across anxiety, and its causes. I then read about living passively. Here are some descriptions:
Anxiety is caused by a behavioral disorder. Rather than it being an illness or disease, anxiety RESULTS from the behaviors we use (how we think, act, and behave). Naturally, the more unhealthy behaviors you have, the more likely you are to develop an anxiety condition.
One of those unhealthy behaviors is living your life passively (submissively, obeying without resisting).
Do you live life passively?
Now, I must say this is not elevating. Admitting to this requires some queer kind of courage. But the evidence was before me. My mental and physical experiences concurred with the words on that web site. I knew I wasn't over the doormat thing completely. Here's a chance for me to redeem myself. To find myself. Uncover my unaware parts and bring awareness to them. Could it be true that I've lived in anxiety all my life, and that I'm too accustomed to it now to even notice? Could it be possible that my body weighs as much as it does because my habitual anxiety has shaped it so? Does this mean that I will have to slowly start refusing those false beliefs that I have that cause me to act and think in such a way that it's causing me anxiety and harm? I think so.
Lets see how this proceeds, I cant wait to try and implement this. Till now, the combination of books and experiences has been very helpful in changing myself. Looks like in this life I'm going to use this strategy to progress. Wish me luck, my caretakers, thank you for sending these people and knowledge into my life. It feels great to know that I'm loved unconditionally. I love you too :)
Anxiety is caused by a behavioral disorder. Rather than it being an illness or disease, anxiety RESULTS from the behaviors we use (how we think, act, and behave). Naturally, the more unhealthy behaviors you have, the more likely you are to develop an anxiety condition.
One of those unhealthy behaviors is living your life passively (submissively, obeying without resisting).
Do you live life passively?
Now, I must say this is not elevating. Admitting to this requires some queer kind of courage. But the evidence was before me. My mental and physical experiences concurred with the words on that web site. I knew I wasn't over the doormat thing completely. Here's a chance for me to redeem myself. To find myself. Uncover my unaware parts and bring awareness to them. Could it be true that I've lived in anxiety all my life, and that I'm too accustomed to it now to even notice? Could it be possible that my body weighs as much as it does because my habitual anxiety has shaped it so? Does this mean that I will have to slowly start refusing those false beliefs that I have that cause me to act and think in such a way that it's causing me anxiety and harm? I think so.
Lets see how this proceeds, I cant wait to try and implement this. Till now, the combination of books and experiences has been very helpful in changing myself. Looks like in this life I'm going to use this strategy to progress. Wish me luck, my caretakers, thank you for sending these people and knowledge into my life. It feels great to know that I'm loved unconditionally. I love you too :)
posted by Lotus at 2/08/2011 10:16:00 AM
2 Comments:
We love you too!
But sorry, we have been busy with other people lately. You know HR can be a difficult job, especially with an evergrowing population of souls.
How is your strategy progressing? We hope you approve of the new people and knowledge we've been sending your way recently.
Take care dear child. Peace out!
LOL
Post a Comment
<< Home