vain dreams

Your wife is a saint, he said to his brother.

Oh that brought me so much vindication. It was such sweet justice to hear those words. I was so proud. Yes. Now I've been proven right. Now everyone knows how great I am.

Unfortunately, I am only beginning to realize what my position is. I'm trapped. I'm hooked. I don't want to get out of prison. And it's filled with hateful others. The more we all enjoy here, the worse our qualities become. And I'm trying to see if there's an easy way out. But it's a tough way out. Resist temptation and repent all my sinful desires and acts. Be humble and tolerate insults. Be prepared to be hated and misunderstood.