So you think you're finally humble enough?
Humility is an elusive quality. Those who have it don't know they have it, and don't claim to be humble. They just feel fallen.
When you sense a lack of humility, sense of separatism, and taking of sides, beware. These are all qualities of the serpent of false ego. When we can't enjoy our mind, senses, or intelligence anymore, and the Holy Name gives us no pleasure, we succumb to the pleasure given by the false ego. Then we take pride in our Krishna Conscious prowess. We want people to side with us, become our minions. We want control.
But another razor's edge is finding this fault and becoming critical. This is just another feature of the false ego. Fault-finding. We have to have the decency to admit how easily possible it is for anyone to be in this situation, and pray. We have to pray for those we cannot directly speak with or talk to about it. If someone is a junior and takes shelter of us sincerely, not just superficially, then we can test them and see if they really want help or just want to flatter. Once we know they are sincere, we can help. Similarly, we should humble ourselves before those who are in the know. Krishna can grace us by helping us find such association. Then the heart becomes easy to cleanse as we can see our imperfections more distinctly.
Walking through the door of humility is the ultimate nishtha-giving, liberating, offense removing, taste-giving step for us. On the other side of the door is joy, tolerance, compassion, honesty, taste for the Holy Name, beginning of devotional life, and removal of false ego by Krishna. It is a beginning of sorts.
I am unfortunately in complete illusion, thinking myself very intelligent, finding faults in others and being unwilling to serve them, being envious, angry, greedy, lusty. I don't know what to do, or not do. I am full of these faults Krishna. I am completely fallen. Please help me. Please help me pray for those who are in illusion, including myself, rather than becoming envious of others and my own self.
Please help.
When you sense a lack of humility, sense of separatism, and taking of sides, beware. These are all qualities of the serpent of false ego. When we can't enjoy our mind, senses, or intelligence anymore, and the Holy Name gives us no pleasure, we succumb to the pleasure given by the false ego. Then we take pride in our Krishna Conscious prowess. We want people to side with us, become our minions. We want control.
But another razor's edge is finding this fault and becoming critical. This is just another feature of the false ego. Fault-finding. We have to have the decency to admit how easily possible it is for anyone to be in this situation, and pray. We have to pray for those we cannot directly speak with or talk to about it. If someone is a junior and takes shelter of us sincerely, not just superficially, then we can test them and see if they really want help or just want to flatter. Once we know they are sincere, we can help. Similarly, we should humble ourselves before those who are in the know. Krishna can grace us by helping us find such association. Then the heart becomes easy to cleanse as we can see our imperfections more distinctly.
Walking through the door of humility is the ultimate nishtha-giving, liberating, offense removing, taste-giving step for us. On the other side of the door is joy, tolerance, compassion, honesty, taste for the Holy Name, beginning of devotional life, and removal of false ego by Krishna. It is a beginning of sorts.
I am unfortunately in complete illusion, thinking myself very intelligent, finding faults in others and being unwilling to serve them, being envious, angry, greedy, lusty. I don't know what to do, or not do. I am full of these faults Krishna. I am completely fallen. Please help me. Please help me pray for those who are in illusion, including myself, rather than becoming envious of others and my own self.
Please help.
posted by Lotus at 1/31/2018 04:53:00 AM
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