Integrity: Consistency in words, actions, and thoughts
Honesty: Chapter 1 in the Book of Wisdom
A strange moon sets in the night sky when you discover that you often are dishonest and justify it completely. To save my friend, who thinks gurus are disposable tools used only to establish a connection with paramatma, I ask challenging questions that are not really my own. I pretend to be ignorant and ask questions for "the benefit of others." I don't oppose - because that is scary. I don't actually have a question. I just lie. And it is so noble because the goal is to benefit others.
A liar cannot be trusted. A liar cannot be influential or persuasive, because they have no integrity, no credibility, no reliability, no honesty. If I could just have been honest and asked for an elaboration on the topic of disposable gurus, it would have been much more sane, helpful, and honest.
I thought I was being very intelligent. I was just proving to everyone what a liar and deceiver I am. I cannot be trusted. That is the message I sent out. What will I say when M finds out I'm initiated? I have been pretending with her to be as confused about the topic of needing a guru as her. What kind of a message am I sending out?
Why am I dishonest? Why can't I ask real questions I have, or make a comment instead? Why do i try to camouflage everything to make it look less harmful and more acceptable?
What is wrong with me? When did I start doing this? How can I get my integrity back?
I need to really check my motives whenever I do something or talk. Am I being honest? Am I twisting things? Am I agreeing to do something because of guilt or pity? Am I actually talented in the field I claim to be talented in?
A strange moon sets in the night sky when you discover that you often are dishonest and justify it completely. To save my friend, who thinks gurus are disposable tools used only to establish a connection with paramatma, I ask challenging questions that are not really my own. I pretend to be ignorant and ask questions for "the benefit of others." I don't oppose - because that is scary. I don't actually have a question. I just lie. And it is so noble because the goal is to benefit others.
A liar cannot be trusted. A liar cannot be influential or persuasive, because they have no integrity, no credibility, no reliability, no honesty. If I could just have been honest and asked for an elaboration on the topic of disposable gurus, it would have been much more sane, helpful, and honest.
I thought I was being very intelligent. I was just proving to everyone what a liar and deceiver I am. I cannot be trusted. That is the message I sent out. What will I say when M finds out I'm initiated? I have been pretending with her to be as confused about the topic of needing a guru as her. What kind of a message am I sending out?
Why am I dishonest? Why can't I ask real questions I have, or make a comment instead? Why do i try to camouflage everything to make it look less harmful and more acceptable?
What is wrong with me? When did I start doing this? How can I get my integrity back?
I need to really check my motives whenever I do something or talk. Am I being honest? Am I twisting things? Am I agreeing to do something because of guilt or pity? Am I actually talented in the field I claim to be talented in?
posted by Lotus at 9/09/2017 12:06:00 PM
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