The Fortune of a Genuine Beggar
Amazing lecture about Shuklambara Bramhachari and his previous birth as Sudama Vipra that I heard.
Gurudeva mentions that
1. To constantly think of how to serve at any given moment is the meditation of a devotee
2. The taste for chanting comes by serving those who have taste
3. We should think, if people give me respect and praise/honor me, it is their greatness that they are willing to respect a fallen person like me.
4. The importance of strict sadhana should be remembered
5. Shuklambara was begging at the doors of materialists to help them get sukriti by offering what they gave him, to the Lord. He earned sukriti for them, and this was Krishna's plan to use him as an instrument.
6. If we give charity, we should think "I am a beggar, begging always for service. And this opportunity to give someone else charity, is that service. So I am a beggar who has received the chance to serve. Therefore, I am so grateful and fortunate." We should not think, "I am giving." We have nothing anyway. We are the beggar.
7. When one develops the mentality of a beggar, then one is able to remain humble and tolerant and remember Krishna.
I am a beggar who has no taste for Krishna's name because my heart is filled with anarthas, aparadhas, and my mind is filled with mundane desires, lust, greed, envy, pride, anger, and illusion, along with many many subtle impressions. I have trained myself, life after life, to become a servant of my senses. I am devoted to a life of sin. And I have no attraction for the path of bhakti. All I wanted from the Mahamantra was ultimate power to read minds and feel superior. I approached the Lord for disgusting things, and yet He embraced me. He gave me a taste. He did not reject me or let go of me. Even when I chant inattentively, He hears me. He tries to help me. But I am so foolish and crooked. What can be done? I have only materialistic desires and want to enjoy and possess. How can I become honest? How can I become simple-hearted? I am crooked. I simply want personal selfish gain.
I pray that my love for Krishna is awakened. Only then will I be able to surrender. I pray that I give up my anarthas, only then can I chant offenselessly. I pray that the dirt in my heart is cleansed. Only then will the Lord come to stay there. Everyday I forget that I decided to surrender my life to Krishna. Every day, I forget that I decided to chant without offenses. I hope I can become serious. Otherwise there is no hope. Time is running out.
Will I ever be able to serve my Gurudeva to his satisfaction?
Gurudeva mentions that
1. To constantly think of how to serve at any given moment is the meditation of a devotee
2. The taste for chanting comes by serving those who have taste
3. We should think, if people give me respect and praise/honor me, it is their greatness that they are willing to respect a fallen person like me.
4. The importance of strict sadhana should be remembered
5. Shuklambara was begging at the doors of materialists to help them get sukriti by offering what they gave him, to the Lord. He earned sukriti for them, and this was Krishna's plan to use him as an instrument.
6. If we give charity, we should think "I am a beggar, begging always for service. And this opportunity to give someone else charity, is that service. So I am a beggar who has received the chance to serve. Therefore, I am so grateful and fortunate." We should not think, "I am giving." We have nothing anyway. We are the beggar.
7. When one develops the mentality of a beggar, then one is able to remain humble and tolerant and remember Krishna.
I am a beggar who has no taste for Krishna's name because my heart is filled with anarthas, aparadhas, and my mind is filled with mundane desires, lust, greed, envy, pride, anger, and illusion, along with many many subtle impressions. I have trained myself, life after life, to become a servant of my senses. I am devoted to a life of sin. And I have no attraction for the path of bhakti. All I wanted from the Mahamantra was ultimate power to read minds and feel superior. I approached the Lord for disgusting things, and yet He embraced me. He gave me a taste. He did not reject me or let go of me. Even when I chant inattentively, He hears me. He tries to help me. But I am so foolish and crooked. What can be done? I have only materialistic desires and want to enjoy and possess. How can I become honest? How can I become simple-hearted? I am crooked. I simply want personal selfish gain.
I pray that my love for Krishna is awakened. Only then will I be able to surrender. I pray that I give up my anarthas, only then can I chant offenselessly. I pray that the dirt in my heart is cleansed. Only then will the Lord come to stay there. Everyday I forget that I decided to surrender my life to Krishna. Every day, I forget that I decided to chant without offenses. I hope I can become serious. Otherwise there is no hope. Time is running out.
Will I ever be able to serve my Gurudeva to his satisfaction?
posted by Lotus at 7/08/2016 06:21:00 AM
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