fear and indecision Isa wedding

Should I go? No. Non devotees. Nothing to do with Krishna. But how to stay alone at temple? Or home? What if maa is brought home? What if I go and then am attacked? Should I msg Isa about fear? Should I msg Thanh? Will I be raped? Will I go and eat karmi food and lose more Krishna?

Asat sanga tyaga. It really means giving up false association. Really. Even sith neophyte devotees. Can't make excuses about wanting to help.

I CAN'T HELP ANYONE. i need inner guidance for Everything.