Sunday, December 26, 2021

jealous possesive

Dauji is a jealous and possesive husband. He wanted me all to himself. He was never okay sharing me with anyone, inuding relatives. He never invites anyone home. He never goes out to any events even if he is invited. Anyway, now, he thinks I am mad because I think the earth is flat and telepathy is real. And he thinks I'm Indian. So he sits and complains to me about how India is not the way he'd like it to be.

Tulsi is also jealous and possesive like him. If I give my attention or love to anyone else, they both freak out. Tulsi tries to stop me, and he just becomes more reclusive and withdraws in the hope that I will come and rescue him from loneliness. But as soon as I talk to him, especially about Krishna Consciousness, he just turns into an antagonistic, cynical, critical, she's mad and I wish she'd shut up person. He obviously has no respect for me. And for Maya, it will be very easy for hee to convince me that this is not perfect husband material. But the thing is, there is no such thing as husband material in this world. It's a mental asylum. And so, whatever happens, I need to simply surrender, observe, and do my best to serve according to my position. I don't need to take shit, but I am willing to take it if that's what makes Krishna happy. I'm not perfect wife material either. And it requires two tolerant forgiving people to make a marriage work.

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