i forgot so quickly

Although I had been given the information by Krishna or Maya, I don't know which, that I could get raped and have a rape child, I was so engrossed with food and what to do about it that I just ignored the impending danger thiinking it might go away. I now realize that I'm being shown, how, if I can't control my tongue, what will I do if my genitals are agitated? And what if I'm trapped somewhere? Only taking shelter of the holy name NOW will help me. If I can't chant helplessly now, how will I chant helplessly when I am cornered? I must give up all bad association and simply focus all my energy on chanting. Day and  night. Because even at night I am being attacked by vicious thoughts.

When will I chant purely? When will I chant helplessly? When will I give up attachments for the wrong things? Kabe habe bolo sei dina amar?