beg

With a corrupt intelligence, how can I rely on my own faculties to do the right thing? I have to beg Krsna to please dust this carpet of my heart and make it clean. Please clean my mind, intelligence, and heart. I cannot function. I am addicted, corrupt, unable to follow instructions, and unwilling to follow instructions. I pray that I can stop drinking poison. That I can be better than my sickly condition right now.