false god

I wanted to be a false god. I wanted to be a controller enjoyer propreitor. Now I have created my own conditionings through repeated wrong choices. This is why the theory that we are all god appeals so much to people, because secretly that is the reason we came here. This is the original disease. And thus because Krsna is naturally God without need to desire to be so, we hold malice against Him in our heart. And this manifests as malice toward other beings.