premonition versus fallacy

Am I concocting future scenarios and over thinking things? Or am i really about to be raped, and get pregnant with a rape child and be thrown out of my own family and forced to adjust to a bigger shell? Is that a karmic reaction awaiting me that will seem really dark but is just Krishna planting the seed underground? I desperately need association, guidance, and help. I need someone to evaluate, whether my conclusion is sane or escapist or idealistic projection, or factual intuition? Am I set to be another sindhutai sapkal? Am I going to suddenly be freed from griham andha kupam? Will all my friends and relatives reject me? Will I be hated, misunderstood, and surrendered? What is going to happen? If I only had a hint.

Am I supposed to reject this thinking pattern because I must obey my spiritual master's instruction to be an exemplary grihasta, dealing with controversies without running away? Facing challenges instead of trying to escape with an excuse.

Sometimes what happens is unfair and bad. Draupadi and Abhimanyu got a raw deal. But they took that situation, allowed it to let them turn to Krishna, and found inner strength beyond the shelters of the world?

Rape may be commonplace. But that doesn't make it normal or okay.

Rape children may be common. But that doesn't make it okay for me to just lay down and accept destiny without standing up for justice, to give a voice to the voiceless.