bhogaishvarya prasaktanam

I should not maintain strong attachments to getting my way. Even after saying wuth honey four times I was given cough syrup with sorbitol instead. I guess that was Krishna's arrangment. I was so angry. I was really wild. I was upset. I ate some sweets. I was just unable to tolerate the anger welling up. Such a dumb woman. I said 4 times! She can't understand? Anyway, so I have attachments and so I can't accept that things don't go my way, even when I'm clear about what I want.

Dauji warned me. You'll make offenses and get a reaction. Don't make offenses. Be calm in all situations. Even when your expectations are more than torn into shreds and thrown into the drain.

I must learn to give up all expectations that I will

Get what I want (big one)

Get respect

Be understood

Be supported

Be liked

Be given a second chance

Be treated the same as others if not better

Be ignored

Never be mistreated

Be recognized