How fallen am I?

Pride is the greatest sign of ignorance and the father of all sin. But the ego can disguise false pride as a good quality - self esteem. When Krishna is kind, we are insulted sufficiently to become humble. Devotees like to be insulted. It helps them become humble and to come closer to Krishna.

How fallen am I? Until my honest answer is not "the most", I cannot get Lord Chaitanya's mercy.