devaki devi m

When i told her about voices and music in the mind, she said it's just the mind. So i accepted what she said. And then she said, you have to share with others think of others, not just be selfish and remain kanishtha.

So indirectly she indicated. You're madhayama and you know it. I told you it's your mind and you didn't argue or justify. That means you know better. That means you should be sharing. You shouldn't be obsessed about your own progress alone.

But I am full of anarthas. I need association with pure devotees, and I must become pure and an instrument in the hands of Krishna. Otherwise, what kind of help can I extend to others? It will be simply maya acting through me. And it will be simply ego gratification.

She felt my mentor is too far away. Let me ask Gurudeva if I should pursue association with her. Should I endeavor to serve her? But I have a daughter still not attending school. What to do with her? Perhaps temple devotees like Anna can help.