intense hankering

Hankering for external stimulation.

Worrying about what devahuti aka debashree aka vaidehi shaw thinks of me for rejecting her fb request.

Worrying about how I will keep t happy, even though that is not my job. She is not doing me a favor by coming here. She wanted it. She can try and take what she wants. But I must meditate on Krishna and treat her as His part and parcel, estranged but beloved. I should serve Krsna and forget about trying to impress or please. I must focus on my sadhana.

I started searching recipes again. And I also started feeling strange that I wasn't getting any emails about property ads. I started wondering and feelibg anxiety about future, war possibilities, fear of being falsely accused. I must only fear not taking shelter of Krsna.