faith

It took Gajendra 1000 years to give up faith in his own strength and to take shelter of Krishna. The crocodile has been set loose. And it's being directed by Mayadevi. Now I'm in a fix. How long will it take for me to repent, go down on my knees, and beg Krishna to excuse me for having left Him and forgotten Him? When will I give up my false sense of security? There are people being poisoned and murdered because of Maya's arrangements. This is serious. A compulsive obsessive person will stop at nothing. What can I do except take shelter?