how can i serve you?

In each moment is the chance to serve you in some way. What can i do? How can I serve you?

This mentality is my only hope for everlasting hapiness. I have faith in you. Those who have faith that you will protect them in all circumstances, they know you will come if they just call out to you. They can understand, I should use each moment to serve. Each soul is a devotee, asleep or awake. What can I do in each moment I am alive in this world to relieve you of your transcendental headache? I came with nothing and will leave empty handed. Why fear anything if I know you protect those who seek your shelter? I need not worry about anything. Krsna bhakti koile sarva karma krta hoy. You will tell me what and how much and how to do. Why should I depend on the prompts of this mind? It is just controlled by the modes. Maya. Prompts me to think of how I am better than others. How the demoniac materialists are so fallen and I am such an exalted devotee. I need to realize that I'm wearing tinted glasses. I can't see reality. Reality of my fallen condition. I hunger for your ecstatic loving devotional service, but instead use substitutes like gross food to intoxicate my body. This is not a solution. Mucous is increasing. I'm just suffering. Anxious. All I have is the opportunity to surrender and ask how I can serve you and wait for a chance to sincerely do so. But instead I gamble away time, misuse my resources. Overcook and overeat. I don't recognize how much I am in poverty, how much I need blessings and a desire to serve. I am in great need, and am hungry. Let me hunger for Krsna. If I don't I will never get you. I will simply be satisfied with substitutes temporarily. But this body will grow old, and all the facilities I have will be snatched away from me. I must be desperate for grace. With all beings, let me simply ask how can I serve you. Let me never judge to feed my ego, here is a devotee, here is a demon. Let me see here is my master. An instrument of Krsna. Those who chastise me are just saying what you wish to say to me. I should accept it. As a merciful correction. See every event as your mercy. What else is there to do. Except to be in this mentality at each moment?