Goals today and in this life

My goals for the day and my goal for life have a huge correlation. Even then, I find that my goal for life remains somewhat unaccounted for in every passing moment. I need more correlation.

Its very useful to know who your boss is. Sab ka malik ek. And I'm not talking about the workplace. I'm talking about Krishna.

My thoughts are so incessant right now that I am unable to sleep. My mind is really giving me a hard time. So many things to process. So much to reminisce. Laugh about. Feel heartened for. Oh! the glory of transient bliss.

Yes. Transient. Think about it, what must spiritual everlasting bliss be like? Wait a minute. Vrajvasis forget that Krishna had ever left. Is that transient? Hmm. The memory is transient, the bliss is not.

Ah! what fun. Separation is such an interesting concept when its compared with that of a hole in a semiconductor. A hole is simply the absence of an electron. Holes aren't objects by themselves. But they are treated like objects anyway. Even separation is considered to exist anyway.

Anyway, coming back to the point. Love, acceptance, recognition... are these the things I hanker for? Now that it is time to experience some of them, does my heart feel warm? Do I feel safer?

No. I just feel like, this is how things should have been anyway. But ok, this is how they have turned out now. Better now than never. I wouldn't pray for something like that. But, yes, I would fear the enemy named pride if recognition were to come my way. Human beings have little clue of what power and fame could do to them.

Maya, maya. I decided the day I found out that I was completely your slave, that I should surrender to Krishna. Better to be His slave than yours. But look at my endeavors - so insignificant. Look at my enthusiasm, dedication, and planning - so weak. I need to reassess my priorities and revamp my life.